i.am.scared.of.heights

my wkend started at 620am tdae, as i had to be out of the house by 1030.
grateful to the guys for agreeing to run 30mins earlier!

took a different route today as suggested by uncle jb. so instead of heading left to the ranger station, we explored 'la ruta de montana' tt heads to pierce.
the last time i ran this was when i was coaching my bro's batch of the ac x team.
doing the hills was a not so pleasant reminder of the fact that im not that young anymore!
so its been a long time since any of us did the route, and some things have changed.

#lesson 1: never trust jb when he suggests a new route.
jb, tu 'esquina' es muy larga!'
always check when he's last run the route. u a) either holan, b) end up having extra adventures on ur morning run

#lesson 2: i am afraid of heights.
the next time lionel, jb or kenneth ask me if im ok with something - i will not be so gungho to try.
it was embarassing n frightening at the same time.
cant say what happened here beebs..check ur email!
uber paiseh la.

so after our little adventure getting to the toilet at pierce reservoir; we did the long n uphill run back out to casuarina. was really happy to turn off n go home while the guys accompanied kenneth back to mac.

managed to finish stretching n planks n showered by 1015. ate tau sa zhang, yoghurt n mango cheesecake with starbucks coffee for breakfast =)
left house a lil later than desired at 1040, thought i would be late given the scarcity of buses heading to bishan..(really terrible how they come so infrequently on wkends).
got to cathay just in time for the trailers.
caught the expendables one...its really good and packed solid with all the big names!
u have to watch it; tho as lionel says its a movie u should watch wif guys.

knight and day was not too bad, i'd give it 7/10. abit predictable after awhile.
few hilarious moments. cruise n diaz are pretty gd.

had lunch at pomo jap fdcourt wif my colleagues , n teh bing after =)
was nice company on a sat aftn.
decided to pop by the lib on the way home to pick up some reading.
allowed myself 1 trashy novel out of the cycling books + yell for cadel tt i picked up (which is kinda disappointing btw)

#lesson 3: reading about infidelity is a waste of brain space.
am totally serious. any of the trashy novels about unsuccessful relationships would have been alot better than this. heck, i should have re-read paullina simons novels.

so the wrong choice was a book called lost hearts in italy.
the protagonists are a expatriate middle class american couple in their mid 20s, harvard grads.
what makes their relationship unique is that she's black and he's white; this is set in 80s/90s/2000s.
so the story really begins when he gets posted to roma and she gets flown out to him on first class. an italian (twice her age) is the only other passenger in first class, and he happens to be (i assume owner of PEZ) a very rich man.
so he's attracted to this bella who has a very nice behind?!!? and asks for her number which she naively gives.

she n her husband are madly in love, but she happens to meet this italian whenever he calls her in italy, tho with her husbands full knowledge. he wines and dines her , and the first cracks start when he takes her to his private yacht. nothing happens , and they dont see each other again for a while.
in the interim, she and her husband have a girl.
ffwd two yrs later, when the italiano dude calls her again, and this time, she meets him n start their rendezvous.
things cool btw her husband n her, and eventually she confesses, he kicks her out, they divorce.
he gets posted back to london (ibanker), she stays in italy with their daughter.

she gets pregnant with the italiano dude's kid (wow. surprise.did she have an abortion? dunno n cant be botherd). anyhow, they both remarry n have kids wif their respective spouses. n mr-italiano still calls her occasionally. but they don't see each other anymore. (or so i gather)

so the story is told in retrospect in 3rd person. alternating betw female, male protagonist n mr italiano (baddie!) while the story is set in italy, where it seems to be that extra-marital relationships are the norm and not exception, the author seems to allude to the broader globalised world.

she's at fault. but so is mr-italiano for pursuing a married woman. then again. he divorced his first wife (n made italian history when divorces were first made legal in catholic italy) ,fathered a son through an illegitimate union, and continued to have casual relationships with other women when he was seeing this bella too.

it reminded me of the article last wk on how divorce rates are rising; and more women are initiating divorce. its just very sad how the institution of marriage has become cheapened.
i was jus very disturbed after reading it, should have picked up something else for brainless reading. this provoked even more thought then necessary!

=(

missing u

all i need right now is just to be able to hug u.

painful wkend

this weekend was extremely painful.
it started out with intermittent 6 hr slp, being attacked by the killer mosquitoes.

then it was a painful 2hr run with lionel n kenneth at macritchie.
weather was nice, not too hot but rather humid.
my poor knees =(

managed to get swimsuits from tyr at $20 each =) total damage for sat was $66 - including 2 pairs of earrings + gift for colleague.

popped into queensway for some tutu kueh. honey no nice liao. it was warm but not freshly made =(

came home for a swim n then took my parents to margaret drive for dinner.
parallel parking !!! my gosh...haha..thankfully there was ample space in front of the furniture/seafood place- but still.. went head in n was still too far from kerb.
sigh. practice !

had the chicken chop - lil disappointing. daddy had the hor fun n mummy had the nice charkwayteow.
sugar cane was BIG disappointment.
anyways - they will only be moving next year. so we still got time to go back n try more stuff!

our $1.50 cappucino =) not too bad for the price.

this morning's ride was PAINFUL.
ive never seen my speedo average stay above 30 ever.
they stared whacking almost immediately at mandai - according to jinx it wasnt tt bad yet.
lim chu kang was ok cept that i got dropped towards the end n almost got chased by a dog jus b4 the exit. thankfully he was all bark.

wind was strong today but managed to stick with them for quite a bit.
pit stop at shell was well deserved n needed rest.
pace was nice until they hit west coast - then no holds barred =(
was trying very hard to stick with pravin but the wind was strong + my legs jus wouldn cooperate.
hav not hurt so much since rfth !

somehow made it up n down faber. satisfied with the loong n hot ride (got a tan=( !) n glad i decided to sleep the extra 1hr instead of an extra mandai loop. wouldn hav made it home otherwise !

miss u loads pumpkin

to love, honor and OBEY

its funny how 'obey' has become such a word of contention, so much so that people actually take it out of their wedding vows.

here's an interesting take on what the vows mean in everyday life.
http://beyondjane.com/family/marriage/the-secret-gift-of-your-wedding-vows/

i learnt rather unpleasantly last night - the consequences of not obeying the one u've promised to love, honor and obey all the days of your life on earth together, even if u've not made that vow yet!

i really hate arguing/fighting with u when ur a million miles away.
the silence is the hardest part.
of not knowing when i'll get to hear ur voice again, or see ur smile.

im sorry for being stubborn , n for saying u had no right to insist on me resting
i know ur just being concerned for my health, for now and for longterm.
i hope by the time u read this, u can find room to forgive me.

it was nice to have dinner with ur family again today. havent seen hailey for so many wks n she's jus growing up so quickly. still cute as ever, but getting naughtier.

i miss u beebs. so very much.

Honor your father and mother

Ephesians 6:1

Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. "Honor your father and mother" - which is the first commandment with a promise - "that it may go well with you and that you may enjoy long life on earth.Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead, bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord.

we covered this in cell some time ago. It just never really occured to me that i might need to draw strength from it today.

its really not easy to do when ur parents really frustrate u. n they are in the wrong too.

baby. i really needed u today.

to run to for a listening ear to pour out my fan nao

n jus noe that i can be held.

i miss u